Falling Stars -Chapter 8

I am taking a class in school (World Religion)
and a week ago, instead of taking notes I was on facebook (I know, shame on me)
BUT I was actually talking to a friend about what we were talking about in class- Buddhism.

I think Buddhism is beautiful.
Seriously, they are all about love, prayer, peace, joy, doing what is right.
Thinking before you speak, understanding, actions, livelihood, effort, right mind.
Do not steal, do not lie, do not drink or do drugs, do not hurt others, be responsible in relationships.

They just believe things in a different way than Christians.
They have a cylindrical view of life- reincarnation, and if you become enlightened you reach Nirvana which is release from the cycle. (In Hindu religion you reach moksha, which is almost the same idea)

Okay, so....I digress.  ANYWAY They have the same core beliefs as Christians do, for the most part.
What makes them so wrong and us so right?

I don't understand who is right, yet I am just blindly following God.
Because- as far as I am concerned he has shown me and given me so much more than I ever deserved.

Maybe it isn't blind.  Maybe deep down inside (becoming more and more visible as I read this book, seriously) I know the truth, and I've known it all along.  I just refuse to embrace it.

I've known Christ, for some time...or so I thought.  Maybe I have a view of him that I couldn't connect with, and that's my problem?  Maybe I've been connecting him with the people that aren't the same as he is- but in my mind they were.

I used to just think of him as another guy, in charge, telling me I need to do things or I'll get in HUGE trouble- life demolishing trouble.
Maybe, he has a little bit of that in him.

I think the bigger side of him is reveling itself to me.
I think I'm going to stop looking at him as a person and start to look at him as more of an idea, a thought that I can go to whenever I want/need/should.  I am not sure if this is going to help me, but I am going to try it for a few days.
I want to think of him more as love, less as harm...because I think that is a big wall for me.

Don't condemn me for this- if you think it's wrong.  Not everyone can see God in the same way for him to get his point across in their life.  Some people can't see God as a father- maybe they got hurt by their dad.
I didn't, but I got hurt by thinking he was more of a human kind of thing- because Humans have failed in my life- so so badly.
Ideas- to me they are always growing, always.
I hope I don't change my idea.

...here goes nothing.

"We are tiny people, on a tiny little earth suspended in an endless void that echoes past stars and the stars of stars."
^ I like that quote, just a reminder at how little I am in the big picture