I, so far, have accepted that I am flawed. ...in the past few hours that is.
This is a lot for me to grasp. I hate admitting faults. And saying I'm entirely flawed? ....this is like....an atomic bomb. To my everything.
The path to joy winds through this dark valley.
True change, true life-giving, God honoring change would have to start with the individual.
So, starting with myself, what's the problem?
My answer --
Isn't a better question- What isn't the problem? I mean, I'm human, I've made a million mistakes, I'll make a million more. Probably two million....I'm selfish, short-tempered, unforgiving, full of doubt, full of fear, I have problems with trusting, I'm harsh, I have no patience.
The list goes on and on...I can't think of everything that is wrong.
What have I become? -Everything I never wanted to be.
My second goal- and third- I think that one is going to be a "do your best, because that's all you can ask" goal...
2) Continue to accept my flaws, admit my wrongs. It's the only way to recognize they exist and from there I can work to change.
3) Find out who I'm supposed to be, get there. ----or really who I want to become from all of this.
Three is asking a whole lot.....but....it is what it is. I need to set something.
I don't know how I missed this post...
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