Every little thing is gonna be alright...

You guys are probably singing Bob Marley in your head now, you're welcome.  If you were not before- you are now.  Again, you're welcome.  *three little birdsssss
I'm listening to that song as I type....haha
....
Okay, so today I have read chapter ten-
While I was reading this chapter I was conversing with a good friend of mine (let's just call her tutu)
Now, tutu has been my confidant for a few things...and I guess, she has realized- I worry about everything.  I do.  No sense in trying to deny it.  After my "I'm worried about this..." text today, tutu said

"I feel like anxiety is definitely something you need to hand over to God"

well tutu, lemme tell you---was so right.

I started reading the chapter- he spoke about his fear of getting married- she could fall out of love with him (with his friend's mom) and she said that

 "If the relationship is right, it is no more possible to wake up and want out of the marriage than it is to wake up and stop believing in God"
ohhoho...THEN he wrote "believing in God is as much like falling in love as it is about making a decision. Love is both something that happens to you AND something you decide upon"

....So I started thinking- I have a lot of problems with falling in love, especially with God lately.
then it hit me.
I think love has to have A LOT of trust in it.
I mean, you're putting your entire heart into something and TRUSTING everything will be okay.
I have pretty much 0 trust, really...
I never think things will be okay.

If I am going to fall in love with God, or anything or anyone in the future. (though right now this is about falling in love with God)  I need to trust everything will be okay.
Because, with God- it will, even if it doesn't always seem like it, he's got me.

Writing all of this down in my notebook today gave me some peace.  I'm not even finished the chapter.
I think this is the most important thing I've gotten out of it though, I could be wrong.
Probably am :P
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It's so funny--I'm so funny.
I thought I was done learning from this chapter.
Wow, I'm cute.

Okay, so this chapter---- I am in love with it-- well not real love, just the human version of "oh I love pizza"
Not the God version of "OH I LOVE MICHELLE"
...I just made myself chuckle.
I digress.

Really quick- TIL
My belief needs to be passionate.  If it isn't, then I will get no where.  Believing in something comes at a cost- having a belief isn't cool to other people, but if you're passionate about it, they will start to ask questions (I'm finding that with this book)....
I think I'm passionate about this book.
I tell everyone about it, I wake up and it is the first thing I want to read, and before I go to bed it is the last thing I read, I think about it all day, try to find as much time as I can to read it.

Why am I not like this with my beliefs?
I suck....that's why.
I just keep thinking "oh as soon as I'm done with this book- I'll start being more passionate about God, and my love for him"
Why wait?

LEGGOOOOO
(I still have two pages left to read- I really hope that I don't have anything else to learn)

If someone actually read the whole post I just made, you deserve a cookie.