Being alone isn't possible

So, this chapter couldn't have come at a better time.

I normally read in my room, or the library, or starbucks...with no one else around that I can talk to or get distracted with.
So, I am kind of alone- but I don't feel alone.

Today- I was alone.  I was completely and utterly alone.
I had some image testing done for some stuff, and it is always scary- but this time I went in thinking "it is never anything bad- so it wont be this time, I'm fine- the doctor just wants to recheck everything"

Today one of the images was really weird.  The shape was off, and that isn't normal.
I've never noticed it before- and we never looked at the side it was on because I've never had problems in the past.

So today, I was scared.   Then they told me I had to wait.  I was in a huge room, by myself, for an hour.
All I had was my journal and blue like jazz.

I'm so glad.

This chapter is literally titled Alone (and the chapter after is community, then money- I read all three while I was waiting for my images to be checked)...two of them kinda fit together (alone and community)

....Before I started to read I was feeling totally alone and scared- I couldn't talk to anyone except my notebook.

After I read for a little I started laughing to myself-  I was in my own personal hell- being alone.
I am going to shorten this a lot....simple and good.

God made us to interact with each other, we cannot live correctly without being able to do so.

God is love.
God shows us his love in the people he places in our lives, in the people we interact with.
We need interaction with other people to be mentally healthy, physically, emotionally....(think about it....okay)

So- ..transitive a little bit----- we need love.  or we cannot survive in this world.
Being alone is impossible because you can't see that love by yourself.

....the end.

Also- the community chapter had a basis in this- along with my whole interactions/actions thing. I'm trying to work on.
Also--- I need to be more selfless

"If we are not willing to wake up in the morning and die to ourselves, perhaps we should ask ourselves whether or not we are really following Jesus."
..... Give your whole self away- it isn't yours anyway.
(only in good ways...please...lol)

Yeah- this chapter was perfect timing.  Every chapter seems to be perfect timing.
Also- the lady in the room next to me found out she was having a son...which was pretty adorable to hear her reaction.

I am still scared- but I'm going to be okay.  I am not alone. I have love.