Stare At The Sun

So, one of the hardest things for me to accept is not fully grasping things.

....Oh man I don't ever make sense.

In any case, I mean to say- I need to stop being uncomfortable with not understanding the fullness of God- because I never will.

Funny, as I was reading this chapter I was listening to Mutemath, their song "Stare At The Sun" has a line in it:
"Maybe we don't need to know any more than we have to- and we stare at the sun, but we never see anything there"

We have to understand God is that he is love, he is good, he knows everything, and he is all and in all.
That is enough to keep our hearts on him.

I was talking to some friends about this and asked how they are comfortable with the idea of not fully knowing everything about God- because to me that is a hard thing to accept.  One friend said "It's comforting knowing that God knows everything, so I don't have to"

If I think about it that way- it is kind of peaceful.  He is taking care of things- I don't need to, I just need to obey him.


... Literally I feel like there is a weight that's been lifted from my chest.
Anxiety is a big thing I struggle with- I worry about almost everything that I can.

I realize how ridiculous this is- recently I've been pretty good about noticing it...I just have to learn to accept things and be okay.

That is probably going to be the hardest thing for me to overcome.